~Ann-Chovi

So I found all of my old year books from gradeschool.



...Is it odd that I find myself wishing I hadn't? Or at least that I could create a great burning pyre and dance around it waving sticks and shouting in incoherent babble as they're incinerated? I don't know, they both sound like pretty good ideas to me.

I'm surprised they lasted this long actually, those have to be some of the worst memories in the old mental data-bank. Many of which decided that resurfacing and throwing my mood totally out of whack would be fun. -_<



Sooo.... poll time (though I lack poll abilities). Anyone else out there ever been the lone kid on the one swing at the end of the playground staring at their shoes all recess? The kid no one seemed to ever want to be around unless they wanted something from you? The kid always picked last for everything, including a freaking science-partner? The kid who stuck up for the others who got picked on because no one else would, and yet had to defend yourself because no one would do the same for you?

Yeah, kinda sick of feeling alone on this- so if that sounds familiar to anyone out there, please share on how you dealt with it. It's nice to at least meet kindred spirits. I myself often wandered off into my own little world and went on adventures with whatever imaginary friend I could think up at the time, pretending to be an animal was pretty fun too. Helped with the loneliness at the time anyway.

Don't get me wrong- right now I'm incredibly blessed. I have a wonderful loving boyfriend who I wouldn't give up for anything in the world, and a few good friends. Who while I rarely see, make living just a little more bearable simply from the fact that they can actually stand being around me. Because apparently I'm difficult to be around.


Arg arg arg- this was such a PMS-y journal. I apologize, just needed to get it off of my chest.

In other news- more arts soon, I'm still working on a couple commishes, and pages from Fortress Avalon. (I'll post a couple here so as to give out teasers. X3)


Just keep on trying 'till you run out of cake.